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Back on the horse

I need you all to help me. I’m making a public commitment: I will work on novel revisions, and I will keep working on them until I have entirely rewritten this book, and then written it again if I need to. I will acknowledge that work and life will sometimes derail this process, and pick it up again as soon as I can. I will make this the best book that I can, and a book I want to read. It’s okay if it is slow, but I still need to do it. I will post irregular updates here.

Kick me if I get too far off-track?

I have some major worldbuilding, character and structural issues to fix. The first order of business is to think hard about the first two, and rewrite the outline for the umteenth time to reflect where the story needs to go, rather than where it does go or where I thought it would go. That will give me a guide for rewriting. (I’ve started this any number of times, but not gotten very far. Apparently my brain decided that an entire first draft was enough and it could quit.)

Entirely unrelated: dog in armor!

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Crossed Genres

I have a great fondness for Crossed Genres. They bought the first story I sold, and all unknowing published it on my birthday. I’m coordinator for Science in My Fiction, which is a CG spin-off. (Incidentally, you should go read my article this month: how can you go wrong with mouse testicles?)

But CG needs some help. Small genre publishers are not, shall we say, a money-making enterprise, and Bart and Kay can’t afford to keep it afloat. They’ve set up a Kickstarter to cover preorders of upcoming volumes, among other nifty things. so that they can get some funds to keep CG from either sucking them dry or dying.

There are lots of opportunities on Kickstarter to support indie SFF publishing of various sorts. I’ll only ever tell you about the ones I think are neatest, or most important. This is one of those.

The world moves, and I with it

After the worst of the recent crunch was over, I turned my attention to all the things that were neglected during that time. Most of them weren’t that interesting: paperwork, housework, all the kinds of work that aren’t work-work.

And fiction. The two most recent flash stories here were my entire output for that time period. But since then I’ve gotten busy, at least in the administrative sense, and have five stories out simultaneously (a new personal best).

So that means I need to finish some more. I should also do some novel revisions, and I keep coming up with ideas for complex, densely-plotted novels that require huge amounts of research. This isn’t a bad thing: I love doing research. But I’m kind of fond of finishing things too, and that kind of work isn’t compatible with my life right now.

Anyway, I’m trying to get back into the habit of blogging regularly. I have plenty of topics stacked up, just none of them have been turning from concept into reality. Must work on that.

Dinosaurs Don’t Eat Flowers

Today is International Pixel-stained Technopeasant Wretch Day. In honor of the holiday, please accept my pixel-stained flash piece, and all the other flash fiction stories I’ve posted over the past year.


“Maybe dinosaurs ate them.”

Alice looked at her little sister in disgust. “Dinosaurs didn’t eat flowers, dummy. Flowers hadn’t been invented yet.”

Meg looked up at her. “You’re not smarter than me just because you’re older.” Anyone watching would have recognized a long-standing sibling disagreement, if there had been anyone left to watch. “Dinosaurs did so eat flowers, so maybe we can too.”

“I’ve never heard of anyone eating flowers. I don’t know if people can do that.” Alice screwed up her face, trying so hard to remember whether people could eat flowers. She was kind of hungry, but somehow flowers just didn’t seem right. Meg ripped a handful of blossoms from the shrub and stuffed them in her mouth. She spit them out again before Alice could do more than take a breath to yell at her. “Ick. Dinosaurs definitely didn’t eat flowers.”

“Dinosaurs ate other dinosaurs,” Alice replied with all the certainty of an older sister who’s nearly eleven, almost. “So that doesn’t help, because there aren’t any more dinosaurs.”

“There aren’t any more airplanes either,” Meg retorted. Alice wasn’t sure why that mattered, since nothing ate airplanes. Or maybe something did, and that’s why there weren’t any more. Their mama was supposed to be on an airplane coming home, only the airplanes all stopped. The internet stopped too, and that’s what they noticed first because the iPad went dark in the middle of a cartoon. Their babysitter said some words Meg wasn’t supposed to know. Alice wasn’t sure where she went after that. She told them to stay in the house, but after a couple hours in the dark they got bored and went outside.

Meg stomped around like a T. Rex for a few minutes, while Alice tried to listen to the grownups. She was the big sister, after all, and she needed to know what was going on. That’s where she heard about the airplanes. They all fell out of the sky, Mr. Neely from down the street said. He was out in his yard talking to Mrs. Singh who lived on the other side of him. All the houses were dark, so people were standing around in the street. Alice wondered what they’d do when it got dark.

Then Alice wondered what she and Meg would do when it got dark. “Meg. Enough dinosaurs.” She grabbed her sister’s arm and tugged her back toward the house.

Meg started to object, then looked at Alice’s face and stopped mid-complaint. “What do we do? Where’s our babysitter? Where’s Mama?”

Alice decided they should stay in the house until Mama got home. Mama always told her to be responsible, and that would be the responsible thing to do. Something outside made a horrible noise, like when she dropped a plate only much, much worse. Alice peeked out the window. Somebody she didn’t know has smashed the Gonzalez’s door in across the street. Maybe they couldn’t stay here after all.

Alice dumped the schoolwork out of Meg’s backpack, the green one with the allosaurus on it. She put in two bottles of water, some Oreos, and a whole bag of Goldfish crackers, plus Meg’s favorite stuffed animal. In her own she put the biggest knives from the kitchen, the things from her mother’s jewelry box wrapped up in a clean towel, and clean t-shirts and underwear for both of them. She left their cell phones because they wouldn’t turn on.

The forest started right behind their house. She and Meg could go out the back without anybody seeing them. She knew how to get into the old mine shaft; she spent lots of time running around in the woods. Hardly anybody knew it was there, so she and Meg could hide from the monsters that ate airplanes. They had food and water and clothes, and they could take care of themselves until Mama came back.

That’s what dinosaurs do.


This one differs slightly from the usual twitter flash. Same time limit (an hour), but different source for ideas, and it wasn’t written on a Friday.
From me – spring flowers, dinosaurs
From Nick – Forest, airplane, abandoned tunnel

Plinth

My workload roughly doubled in the past week, from its already-high state to something approaching insane. Deadlines moved, cancelled activities resurfaced, new projects fell from the sky. It’s all good, but blogging will be rare to nonexistent until mid-April, as will fiction writing, and pretty much anything that isn’t work.

Except Sunday evenings – that’s writers group time, and I intend to keep that up. After a day spent editing grant proposals and book chapters, I didn’t have much brainpower left for anything major, so I solicited ideas on twitter. The usual suspects contributed, and here’s the result.


The stone pillar loomed over the town square. Today only a trio of pigeons occupied its flat top, their inevitable leavings sinking down through cracks in the stone. The pigeons had no use for the stairs spiraling up its sides, carved from the same block of granite as the pillar they encircled, their centers eroded by centuries of footsteps. Grooves around the edges of the steps, worn and faded, showed which parts the apprentice wielded the laser cutter on. The overslip lessened as the stairs ascended, until at the top the work of master and student stonecutter were indistinguishable.

Clouds scudded across the azure sky, trailing blotches of shadow across the square. Nothing moved except the sliding light and darkness. Even the feral cat that haunted the square dozed on a window ledge, having given up on pigeons for the time being.
The windows surrounding the square opened into house and guildhall and kirk, but all were blank. No faces looked out, no blurred motion appeared through the glass. One of the windows at the corner of the square had shattered, shards littering the ground beneath it, the jagged bits covered in dust and pollen.

Whatever force had broken the window came from the inside.

Once the square had been full of noise and movement and music far into the night. The three men and one woman who stood on the plinth watched over the barely-controlled chaos. Traveling vacuum cleaner salesmen–their products guaranteed to suck–vied with peddlers of cut-rate powders and potions for everything from healing broken bones to loosening stiff muscles, and the bars fronting the square did brisk business in gin martinis, or whatever drinks were currently fashionable. Glowing chartreuse cocktails had been a brilliant if short-lived sensation.

The entertainers had been the main attraction: jugglers of iridescent fire, dancers in antigrav bubbles, courtesans of all genders garbed in modes from eighteenth century high court to the finest nanofabrics. After sunset the square glowed with gemlike light limning the forms of the participants, trailing from the walls, puddling on the ground, flowing in luminescent rivulets and runnels around the plinth, but never touching its black silhouette.
As the sun moved toward the west, the shadow of the plinth extended across the square, touching the base and then the top of the building on the far side before merging with the shadows of dusk. No light glimmered anywhere. The cat had vanished with the sun. The pigeons had flown to their roost long before sunset.

Even the people had fled from the shadow of the plinth, but not before blood soaked into the stone where the light had refused to flow.


Contributions:

@fadeaccompli plinths

@ChiaLynn Pieces of glass

@qitou vacuum cleaners, gin martinis, muscle relaxants.

@marjorie73 18th century harlot

Under the Moons

Machines have always been easy to fool.

People too, but if enough people look hard enough, eventually someone will notice. Usually they’re declared insane and locked up, though. The Mars base was nearly eight years old before anyone noticed the forest, and nine by the time anyone else believed her.

After that it was obvious.

The canals, the forests and plains and seas: all around us, enclosed in the tiny ring of red dirt that we’d been circling endlessly, and our rovers before us, convinced we were seeing a whole world.

It was only a matter of time before someone spotted a thoat.

It was rather nice not to have to wear space suits all the time. Mars was a lot warmer than we’d thought, and the atmosphere was a whole lot more accommodating. I hear they’re going to send a crew to Venus to see what it really looks like. Jungles, I’m betting, but I’m not planning on leaving Mars any time soon.

We got a tiny mass ration for personal goods. Most people brought special foods, or some little luxuries. I brought a sword. Single edged, lightly curved, sharp enough to cut between raindrops. Oh yes, we had rain too, enough to keep the canals flowing. A couple of guys were building kayaks in their spare time. The sword belonged to my umpty-great grandfather, according to family legend, part of the Mongol armies of the twelfth century. It was really meant for use on horseback, but I practiced forms with it every day, kept it sharp and clean and oiled. I swung it. The blade whistled through a precise arc, stopped dead at an exact point.

I’d never used it on a living being. Once I practiced on straw-filled dummies, but there was no straw on Mars. Or actually, there probably was, we just hadn’t found it yet. I twisted the blade, admired the way the reflections of the double moons slid across the steel, catching on each slight ridge. Once I’d daydreamed of riding across the endless plains on my smart and faithful mare, falcon on her perch, sword sheathed at my side and bow slung along the saddle. Then I daydreamed of visiting Mars. Studying science, engineering, calculus, earning a doctoral degree and undertaking NASA training, waiting and more waiting: that’s the daydream I worked toward, though every day the sword and I exercised together.

Now I dreamed of riding thoat-back across the plains of Mars, with the Barsoomian equivalent of a falcon circling overhead. Deja Thoris might be too much to ask, but it was my daydream so I could have whoever I wanted.

I toweled my sweat away. It had been a warm day for Terra, let alone Mars, and hadn’t yet cooled off, though the sun was below the horizon. I’d be chilled if I stayed out much longer, damp and no longer working hard.

Akiko met me inside the airlock, a vital necessity on an airless planet. We no longer bothered to seal it, but it was still the main accessway. “Susan,” she said, falling in next to me when I didn’t stop, “I was getting worried. You were out so late.”

When I married her, Akiko and I had both just finished grad school, were both entirely focused on getting into NASA, still a boy’s club, and onto the Mars team. As much as anything, we’d fallen together because nobody else understood our obsession. Everyone else I’d dated had drifted away before too long, uninterested in a partner who worked most of the time, and talked about Mars incessantly for the rest.

Shared obsession might not have been the strongest foundation for a marriage ever, but it worked for them. Until the illusions were broken, anyway. Akiko was entirely unable to cope with Mars-as-it-was. She wouldn’t go outside, and fretted incessantly when I spent time outside the walls, something I did more and more often.

I loved the smell of the breeze, the volatiles that reminded me of creosotebush after a rain, the flowers opening in the long Martian spring. I was a geophysicist, but only because that was the specialty most likely to get me onto the team. If things were different, I would have been a botanist. But who knew we’d need botanists on Mars? My childhood of tramping around in the fields and forests, then looking up my finds, had catapulted me into the leading botanical expert on the whole planet, even though I’d discarded plants entirely once the Mars bug bit me.

Akiko didn’t understand that either. She’d never done anything in her life that wasn’t focused on her one goal, even marrying me. My sword practice had always perplexed her, but she understood the necessity for exercise so she left it alone. This, though: studying plants that shouldn’t even exist. She couldn’t handle it. She’d been drinking more and more. I could smell beer on her breath even now.

I pulled away as she clutched at my arm. Tomorrow I’d try again. I’d go out with my sword and drill in the field under the light of two tiny moons, a few essentials tucked in my pockets just in case.

Tomorrow my thoat would appear, or the tomorrow after that.


This is a Friday flash, only on Sunday. As always, I asked for ideas on twitter, wrote the story in one fell swoop, then posted it here completely unedited.

Tonight’s contributors:
@fadeaccompli – the romance of the second moon
@soundym – beer, marriage, awkward conversation
@quasigeo – falconry, calculus, a 12th c. Mongol sword

The general consensus was that it should be science fantasy in space.

Zombies at the Library

My social media for writers talk went very well. The audience ranged from, “Authors have blogs? How do I find them?” to “How do you manage this fine point of Twitter?” Lots of good discussion and questions, and people said complimentary things after I finished.

I had a great deal of fun making the slides too.

First Lines

I finished the first draft of the story in progress (either the most boring thing ever, or kind of neat – I can’t tell), so I took a spin through the short stories I have started but not finished yet, trying to decide what to work on next.

I’m full of ideas, but short on follow-through, and I keep being interrupted by things with deadlines.

All of them look like fun, really. Maybe I can finish them all before I start any more, and submit them too. (Seems unlikely, doesn’t it?)

Anyway, here they are:

Whisper-thin sheets of stainless steel piled to the ceiling, compulsively stacked, impeccably organized. (All the Leaves on Mars)

Misha laid her hand over Tom’s, formed a smile so practiced it appeared spontaneous. (Alpha Says Omega)

The knock echoed through the office. Jim startled, long and painful experience drawing his hand away from the paper taped to the drafting board. (The Future Is Drawn in Maps of the Past)

“I don’t think you quite understand how this works,” I said slowly, my mouth working on autopilot while my brain ran gibbering in circles. (Dancer of the Universe)

“I’m going to find a blue one!” (Oyster)

The sky was gray, as smooth as if it had been airbrushed, the same shade as the dishes she slid into the matching cupboard. (Gray)

I spring up, spinning to orient myself. (Stars Move Like Clockwork Across the Sky)

Snow swirled glittering in the streetlights, stinging my cheeks. (Christmas Cookies)

I should have figured it out way back in May, when I saw the tidy little pile of pink plastic pellets under the tulips. (Bugs [working title])

On the dais in front of me, the elder statesman of the Krinth, or what passed for such a being in a race that was all but exterminated less than a generation ago, draped a glittering stole around the shoulders of my pilot. (Triad)

A can-can line of blue elephants gyrated through the wormhole void. (untitled; working title cannot be shared)

A year of writing

Yeah, I did some of that. Mostly it was a very good writing year, but for one thing: I sold no fiction whatsoever.

Science first, since that pays the mortgage.

Published:
3 peer-reviewied papers written in previous years
1 peer-reviewied paper written this year
1 peer-reviewied book chapter written this year
2 fact sheets
2 magazine articles

Accepted:
1 paper written this year

Still in review:
2 papers, both with postdocs as first authors

Other academic writing:
1 book chapter on textile archaeology


SFF-related nonfiction:

1 article for Clarkesworld, “Building Forests, Remaking Planets

11 essays for Science in My Fiction. I’ve taken over as schedule coordinator, for SiMF, and you’ll likely be hearing more from me on that subect shortly.

6 reviews for SFF Portal, before they switched directions


Fiction

Rigor Amortis was re-released by Edge (with distribution), made the list of Barnes and Noble 2011 Best Zombie Fiction

I finished a novel first draft, started rewriting it: first completed book-length work (not that it’s anywhere near done).

3 stories finished
6 more stories started

6 submissions of 4 stories (all rejected)

4 Friday Flash stories published online


Blogs:

It wasn’t a great year for blogging.

stringpage.com: 70 posts
sarahgoslee.com: 83 posts

Guest post, “Collection and Contemplation” at Chocolate Scotch


Books read: 114


That looks like a lot, but doesn’t feel like I did nearly enough. Not enough blogging, not enough novel rewriting, not enough short story finishing, and certainly not enough submissions. I did a lot of science, though: five new papers/book chapters is a lot in my field, especially considering that several were single-author.

2012: more blogging, more fiction? I’m not sure how to make that happen, truly. Ideas?

Irkutsk

She said she was going to Irkutsk.

He didn’t believe her.

She said she wanted to travel, to find something new, to understand the world a little better.

After 27 years of marriage, he knew when she was lying.

She went anyway.

The suit he wore to the wedding was still in the closet, shoved way to the back. He hadn’t had it out for years, even though he used to wear it for other formal occasions. But his friends were having funerals instead of weddings, and the two of them hadn’t been invited to a formal party in… he couldn’t remember how long. It wasn’t that nice of a suit anyway.

He pulled it out, stripped off his sweatshirt and jeans and left them in a pile on the floor. She hated when he did that, but her opinion didn’t matter any more. The silk shirt fit nicely–it was considerably newer than the suit. He knotted a cashmere tie over it, standing in the middle of the room in shirt and socks and boxers, eyes closed as his fingers manipulated the soft dark wool. When they got married, they didn’t have much money. The shirt and tie he wore then were polyester or something else cheap. They didn’t care then. The two of them were so in love that they would have gotten married in burlap sacks, just for the ecstasy of saying “husband and wife.”

Irkutsk.

The jacket hung off his shoulders like a worn tablecloth. He’d lost weight since those days, turning into a scrawny old man. Not that he was all that old, of course, but today he felt ancient. He spun before the mirror, watching the fabric sag and ripple. Something interfered with the drape of the front pocket. He pulled out an old gift card, the coffee chain named on it long defunct. Nobody drank coffee anymore.

He skipped the shoes, padding down the carpeted hall and into the living room in his stockinged feet. Her favorite painting, “A Mysterious Stranger,” hung in the hall. It would be childish to turn it to face the wall. After so long, he barely saw it, never looked at it. A shadowy figure stood by a table, the oil lamp sitting on it providing the only illumination. The figure held something aloft. He’d always thought it might be an astrolabe, but he didn’t know what one of those was exactly. She’d tried to explain the symbolism to him once, but he still didn’t understand what the painting meant, or why she was so fascinated by the vaguely menacing form.

Her orchid still sat on the table, flowers wilting but not gone. He lined a row of shot glasses up before it, their edges precisely aligned with the bright woven runner. One shot from each bottle in the liquor cabinet: whiskey, gin, absinthe, vodka, catching the light in multicolored array.

He picked up a glass, turned it between his fingers admiring the play of light through the liquid and the glass. Contemplating what would happen if he tossed it back, tossed them all back one after the other. He set the glass down slowly, gently, back into its careful alignment with its neighbors.

He imagined sweeping them all off the table, scattering shards everywhere, the murky swirl of the mixing liquors. He imagined calling his travel agent and booking a ticket to Siberia to find her. He envisioned himself throwing the mysterious stranger and his astrolabe off the balcony, watching it sail down the stories and crash in the street, where it would be pulverized by a passing truck. He pictured the rest of his life without her, so unlike anything he’d ever imagined, even for a moment.

Irkutsk.


Friday flash… on Saturday!

Tonight’s twitter suggestions:

@qitou Cashmere and silk
@Calvin_cat “He could still get into the suit he was wore at his wedding 27 years ago, but you wouldn’t say it still fit him”.
@Marjorie73 a Mysterious Stranger. And some gin
@randomSpammer A Starbucks gift card
@fadeaccompli a dose of absinthe.
@notanyani astrolabe, orchids
@quasigeo Irkutsk

(I collect suggestions, then spend no more than an hour writing a story that incorporates all of them: no time for planning, no time for editing. This one took me right up to the wire.)